.Friday, December 17, 2004.♥
`I'm so happy, I'm so sad
I'm extremely happy abt tat lady nv call mi to say she is hiring mi. Coz either i interested n i dun wan to waste my time there. But~~~ well hopefully i work or dun work. HeE Haiz another matter is... My heart so pain nw... Like being cut by a knife, my gastric gonna attack soon. haiZ Y do always bad things cum to mi when i dun expect tat. N y do i cum to tis world? alot of ??? in my head roundin n roundin. I am juz a simple ger who needs love, concern n courage. Where else, heaven is always playin a trick on mi. Heaven judge mi by a naughty ger, a unfilial daughter, dishonest bitch, irritating gf, clumsy fat ass, spoiler. I dun blame heaven for doin tis to mi, or shld i say i brought myself.
Anyway to those pple who simply noe mi, i muz say, a realli big thank you for accepting mi for who i m, for nt blameing mi, for nt causing u all a nusiance.
Some pple ard mi, juz hate mi to the sore, which i noe, i had a few failed r/s. When breakin up, i always blame myself for being noisy n nt gd to guys. My lao gong nv fail to lend mi a hlpin hand. I sincerely love him lots.
My mum has always expect mi to chu ren tou di, but i've let her dwn when nt studyin hard. My both sister, had nv fail to do their part to b there for mi too. My dad who is workin overseas striving hard to earn more money to let we enjoy.
My religion, i've been seeing alot of problems ahead, i noe wat's right, wat's wrong. But some pple crtisise mi of it. I noe ar, i dun nid pple to tell mi. I can sense it. Morever, i nv blame them. I noe wat they actually tinkin of.
Meizhen, A jie wif mi for ard 4 yrs plus le. She seen mi growin up each yr. Wherelse, i always take her for granted. N i shld realli b thankful of wat she had done to mi. A jie nv fail to lend mi her listening ear. Courage she gave mi. Alot of stuff we been tru together. Thanks alot. I appreciate it.
My sec sch life, had filled wif alot of ups n dwns. I noe some pple noe mi a nobody to them or watsoever.
ITE has brought mi to tough end. After finishing all my modules for nitec in ITE clementi, i make great frens, Cindy a great sister to mi. Who nv fails to make mi happy. Joke ard wif each other.
Lastly, mayb i wun b able to haf a future. My dreams shedded juz in a drain. All my goals n target like a wind blowing away. Neverless, i been tryin to look s if nth has happen. But honestly, a ger can control it? i dun tink so.
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Oh,love the pink-ness, ♥
12/17/2004 10:07:00 PM